Waiting Process: Make You or Break You

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In the process
In the waiting
You’re making melodies over me

Waiting can be VERY hard. In the physical, waiting to get a cup of coffee when you are late for work or for your food to arrive in a restaurant when you are super hungry is bad enough. In the spiritual, waiting for answered prayers or waiting simply as a growth process can be tough.


And Your presence
Is the process
For I am a pilgrim on a journey

Lately, it has dropped in my heart over and over how this year away from home, He will take me through the wilderness and it is my spiritual waiting period. At first, it sounded so scary and I quickly put it out of my mind. But then, I started having vivid dreams that were too hard to ignore.


You will lift my head
Above the mighty waves
You are able to keep me from stumbling
And in my weakness
You are the strength that comes from within
Good Shepherd of my soul
Take my hand and lead me on

My response to the most recent prompt was I was horrible at waiting, naturally. I am that customer that would leave any establishment if you do not answer me within 10-20 minutes of walking in. He said to me, “I will take your hand and lead you through, IF you let me.” I have realised that this waiting period is for every area of my life, especially my career path in life and the next steps to take. I have had a lot of questions in the past year, questions that shock me, as they were over things I have always wanted all my life and suddenly, I had so much doubt.

You make my footsteps
And my path secure
So walking on water is just the beginning

Although scared, I am willing to wait out the waiting period. He is the same God who promises in my favourite verse of the Scriptures: Jeremiah 29:11, that He has only good plans for me. I can beat my chest on that and always remind Him of ALL his promises. I will trust completely in the mystery of this process. He has taught my feet to dance upon disappointment, especially in the time. I have purposed to worship all through because I know He is making all things new!


You cause my faith to arise
Stand at attention
For You are calling me to the greater

I will pay close attention at this period. I know He will give me strength to wait. Has He not promised not to give me more than I can handle? So, yes! He will keep me from storming out when things aren’t going the way I expect them to. I will keep these promises close to my heart.


You will lift my head
Above the mighty waves
You are able to keep me from stumbling
And in my weakness
You are the strength that comes from within
Good Shepherd of my soul
Take my hand and lead me on

How I love You
How I love You
You have not forsaken me
How I love You
How I love You
With You is where I want to be

I know that my song in the end will be “How I love You” over and over and over again. I embrace waiting wholly!

Are you in waiting period? Or you sense the Spirit telling you you are about to enter such a period? Be comforted in the knowledge that the beauty at the end of the waiting period will be mind blowing and to His Glory alone!

Share with me some of your experiences in your waiting period. I will love to read them.

Lyrics from Bethel Music: Amanda Cook – Shepherd 

xoxo,

His Future Mrs.

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Answered Prayers in Forms We Don’t Expect

You know how we pray with all our might for some things to happen but you almost missed it actually happening because God did not answer your prayers in the manner and form you expect? Yep, that exactly is what happened to me.

I remember praying so hard that I wanted to work in another state and move away from home, even if it is for a year, just to experience the single working life (with no parents constantly nearby). Yes, I got a job in a University and yes, I moved out of my parents’ house for the year. But I very nearly missed the fact that that prayer had been answered because the state I moved to was the last state in  my country I would choose to live in. My job is also the last job I thought I would be doing.

Last night, in deep meditation, the Holy Spirit reminded me of that prayer and asked me to take a good look around my surroundings. Granted, it was a small one room apartment, but it was not my parents’ house, I was in another state and I was working, actually working, not just a freelance job but a 9-4! Quickly, I asked for forgiveness for not taking note when these “little” miracles were happening.

Now, I live alone, by myself. It is my first space. My own little haven and I am incredibly thankful for it. I plan to make great use of my last year as a single, young lady. I look forward to a year filled with adventures and growth, physically and spiritually.

What was your experience like when you moved out of your parents’ to your space? Share with me!

xoxo,

His Future Mrs.

Sunshine, Laughter and Everything Nice

Disclaimer: This post is a rant. I will probably have a ton of posts like this in the coming months. So, do not expect inspiring deep stuff when you see the disclaimer. Thank you.

Naturally, since wedding planning officially began, I’ve been working extra hard at everything my hand finds to do. Life after wedding is the goal.

I have had a harsh reality check from the days we were dating (and we knew we were eventually going to get married but I was very unaware of his responsibilities) to now, (where it’s a case of all cards on the table to cater for various needs, both present and future), the magnitude of new responsibilities is being realized.

I remember speaking to him a few nights ago about contributing towards the wedding and the pressures I am starting to feel. If you know me personally (eventually, lol), you know I am quite intense as a young woman. I grew up very quickly and I learnt really early to take on adult responsibilities. So it came as no surprise to him when I started talking about my contribution or lack thereof, towards the wedding and the early stages of our lives together.

Side note: I am super stressed already with all the career options I have considered in the past few months, like major career switch from what I studied in school. It is hard work enough applying for jobs in my country, now, it is a new terrain that I am completely unfamiliar with and it terrifies me so much.

So, I am starting to understand that the process of becoming Mr and Mrs is no easy feat. It is a huge commitment (I mean, I have always known that but it is really sinking in). Although, I am no longer freaking out with mini panic attacks, I am very much in awe of the way our lives will change come next year.

Every single time I freak out so much, I am learning fast to declare the Word out loud as a reminder to my spirit man to stay calm and that it is wholly Him who will work out a perfect end result: Sunshine, Laughter and Everything Nice.

Rant over.

xoxo,

His Future Mrs.

Forgetting His Faithfulness

 

“…The Lord has made his salvation known. He had uncovered his righteousness for nations to see. He has not forgotten to be merciful and faithful…” Psalm 98: 2-3.

 

Hi hi! Thank you all so much for the feedback on the last couple of posts. I encourage you to please comment as I look forward to hearing your thoughts on my posts.

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A few hours ago, I was in deep conversation with a woman I love so much. Half way through our conversation, I said her, “It’s funny how we underrate God in us so much”. Hilariously,  she replies, “God has been so faithful over and over. I’m the worst of the pack. Every situation is fresh to us, so we quickly forget it was this same God who did us some good a couple of minutes back.”

You know, for many of us, with the new year comes so much vigour to get things done. We are optimistic about the new year, looking forward to the new slate the year presents. It’s natural to get swept up in all these that we do not glance at Him at all.

For me, the new year meant feedback on applications made last year, new clients for my businesses and of course, getting ready to be a Mrs. In all these, yes, I acknowledged Him but I was so goals focused that I do not recall actively seeking His opinion and will before setting about my goals/ worrying about their implementation. And boy, do I know how to worry! 😂

Like my friend mentioned earlier, we are quick to forget His faithfulness. We set about planning as if we are who we are or have achieved by our sheer strength. So, I caught myself today and backtracked. His Will and Thoughts about my goals and aspirations have to be sought before I set about planning.

It’s the tenth day of the year. It’s not too late to go back. Seek Him out with all your heart, He will draw near to you  and give you Wisdom to navigate the year.

I’ll love to hear from you. In what ways have you sidelined God this year without realizing it?

xoxo,

His Future Mrs.

To My Mr.

This is for us. For you. For me. It’s about a year away.When I will become your Mrs. About a year away when our hearts will be sealed as one before our loving Father and our loved ones. That’s why I am spending my last year as a single lady chasing after God better than ever, because you see, my love, I need Him especially  now. That journey we are about to commit to,  I’ll be lying if I say I’m not scared to my bones.  I’d be lying if I say I’m not double checking and triple checking with God. I hope to show you this blog after we are married, so you read and understand that our journey was no ordinary feat. He is and will always be the reason we are. So when you read these blog posts, honey, you better be sitting with a glass of wine and some popcorn,  lol, and me, definitely. 😉

xoxo,

Your Future Mrs.

Hi EveryOne!

This is the excerpt for your very first post.

It is 2:36am.

Get up, child. Get up.

It’s the 7th day of the year. I have been sick since the New Year. I have not been able to fast alongside my family like we always do. I have lost so much weight. I probably should be happy about that as I have struggled with weight loss in the past couple of years. It has been 7 days of medication, medication going wrong and injections daily. My but hurts so much.

Father, why are you waking me at this time? I’m still sleepy from my last injection. I’m tired.

My love, it is the 7th day. The day of perfection. You are healed. You are strong now. Get up.

I grudgingly do so. Pick up my phone and scroll aimlessly through Instagram until He scolds me. Without knowing exactly what I am doing, I’m on Chrome, typing in wordpress.com Then the idea hits. I stop for a second.

What? Lord, no. Nah, fam.

Yes, love. Go on.

Grudgingly , I go on. The farther I go, the more my doubts disappear. The more excited I become. Next thing I know, I’m stifling my WHOOP! I can feel Him smiling.

Child, it’s beyond you. It is by you. For others. For those who would read and see Me shine. For those who would read and know it is possible to have  a godly beautiful relationship. I need you to go hard at it. Bare yourself. Be brutally honest.

But Lord, lol.What? I have made mistakes. Numerous.I’m not sure I want that out for all the world to see.

Yes, but you’re still here, aren’t you?  It is by My Grace you’re still on track and haven’t fallen by the wayside. You chose to build your foundation on Me. I have chosen to keep you from falling, come what may.

Yes, Lord. (Matthew 5:16 MSG)

xoxo,

His Future Mrs.